A Very Honest Confession...
My name is Blair and I’m a blogaholic.
When I started blogging, I blogged for me -- as a way to look back on the joys of my week and to share them with family and friends. By the end of 2010, tired and restless, I realized that I was no longer blogging for me. I got pulled in by the followers, comments, status, and features. I sacrificed not only my professional life but also my personal – choosing to stare at a screen instead of reveling in my family, friends, and community. I set myself a strict regiment of daily posts and deemed them worthy only after reaching a certain quota of comments or new followers.
While I do adore the clothes and exotic designs I boast on my blog, they aren’t me. I own 2 things from Anthropologie (one a gift and the other from the clearance rack). I have spent hours in the past choosing what to blog on the next day only to settle on something I knew might interest my readers more than it really interested me. I’ve shied away from my faith, thinking I should not alienate myself from readers with different views.
Blogging used to be cathartic. Prior to my sabbatical, it was a stressor and quite literally was bringing me pain as I struggled with my sins of jealousy and impatience. Wild & Precious had become an idol. It saddens me to admit how much more attention I gave it than I did to my husband and to my God. I needed a break. Thank you for giving me the time and space I needed.
While blogging had become a stressor, I cannot begin to ignore the many blessings it has brought me. I have made a great community and have even made what I consider to be true friends. I have learned a lot from all of you. For that I give my gratitude.
I will continue blogging. It might look different that what you are used to. Honestly, I’m not quite sure what it will look like from here on out. There will still be some fun giveaways and reviews and a few regular features, but my New Year's resolution (for blogging and life) is to slow down. I know I might lose followers & comments might be few, but I am set on not letting my days be dictated by numbers. I will break free from blogging rules – my posts might be too long, too personal, uninteresting to the majority of readers, but they will be me.
I will pray hard to stick to this resolution as I know my tendencies to over do it will slip in and tempt me from time to time. I want to slow down – take time to cherish the world around me and this season of my life. God has been so dearly good to surround me with so many blessings, yet I speed by so many of them. I am excited for 2011. So many great things to come…